30/10/09~1/1/09,how fast does time flies!!!!

Whoa,time flies fast!!!
I still remember two days ago,i juz bid farewell 2 all my swimming friends....
Tat's d 30 of December 2009,after one month of practicing,d 4 of us had finally graduated!!!!!!
Frankly said,I was a bit sad 2 leave them,d swimming pool...I will miss u all deep in my heart...
All d sweet o even sad moments tat we had been through tat time was memorable :>
As how we accidentally knock into each other,how we dive into water 2 did d 'treasure hunt' activity,haha....
N most importantly,we had changed from strangers tat scared of d 9 feet water at d beginning 2....
'Experts' tat swim frequently in tat area,hurray!!!
However,I noe tat there's IMPOSSIBLE tat I can back to the past anymore,so life still goes on and it's time 2 focus on the future....
Yet,I think I'm already in love with swimming le,it will really prevent me from thinking other things else de,so BATU PAHAT,here I comes :)


31 December 2009
Last day of 2009 le...
At 4pm, I had gone out on a gathering with my friends and oso one of my secondary skul teacher...
The sixth of us sat in a lovely bakery shop "Secret Recipe" n chit-chat 4 2 hours plus..Whoa!!!
Really appreciate tat period with my friends n teacher...
Coz it's nt easy 2 meet 2gether as all of us r currently studying in different places...
Plus the teacher herself had oso revealed a lot of things tat r happening in skul and not forgeting about gossips as well....
Tat's y the gathering was so interesting ^_^
At nitez,me n my family had went to our neighbour's house 2 have our dinner as their eldest
daughter is getting married very soon!!!!
The party is juz going on and on until 12am midnight where the host juz started burning the firecrackers being watched by all his friends and relatives as well...
Looking at the sky full of firecrackers signalling a new year,2010 has arrived...
All I can said is tat 2009 has been a rollercoaster year 4 me,I have experienced sweet n pain moments throughout the whole year(meeting her as well)!!!!
However,tat's d past n my focus now currently switched 2 2010....
I made myself a wish,tat is I will be a better person tis year n oso less tragedy will strike
tis year as well....


1/1/10,first day of a completely new year...Wat's d challenge tat lies ahead?>>
No idea at all....
So here I am,sitting in front of my laptop 2 write tis last blog be4 I'm going back there..
2moro I'm going back there le,a place where I will spend 5 n a half years there....
Tis means I will meet her le,wat will happen tat time??Can I still say "hi" 2 her??
Haizzz,don't want think about tat matter first...
All I want 2 do now is juz enjoy my last moments at home with my dearest families n friends :)

我，真的是那么没有用吗？？？

28/12/09 2.08a.m

又是一个失眠的夜晚。。。。
我躺在床上，翻来覆去，非但睡不着，眼睛还红了。。。
我，又哭了，咳！！！
有时我真的觉得自己很没用！！！
父母骂得我对，这几个礼拜以来，我到底为这个家付出了什么呢？？？
答案是。。。。。。。。。
贡献几乎是零。。。。
我还是老样子，经常贴在电脑面前忙我的，而却忽略了他们。。。
更离谱的是，我还是用他们的钱去买衣服之类的！！！
真是不孝子个 >.<
我讨厌我自己！！！！！！！！！！！


另外，假期也要告一段落，这也象征着开学的到来。。。。
我想到着。。。
就害怕了！！！
我怕见到她，怕不自如何跟她沟通。。。
我，到底还是不是男人啊？？！！！
你到底还有没有心想把她追回来呀！！！
对，我绝对不能害怕面对她。。相反的，我还要即从容又大方的面对才行！！！
咳，说真的，我很想发短讯给她，i但又不懂该写什么？？
看到她现在过得那么好，我的心真的不是好滋味呀。。。。
这足以证i明了我在她心中并没有留下了那么深刻的因印象而已。。。
我。。。
也只在她生命中扮演着一个过路人的角色而已！！！


但是，我不会因此而放弃。。
无论前面的路有多坎坷，难走。。。。
我还是要勇敢去面对，就把它当着是上天给我的一个小考验吧。。。。
我。。。
不能像往常一样在那么不副正业了。。。
我一定要改变了。。。
人是要进步的，总不能停顿在原地，否则只会被社会淘汰，让周围的人瞧不起你罢了！！！


李逸钧。。。。。。。
过了今天以后，你真的要改进了。。。。。。。