14/12/09 was d day tat i wont 4get till my death..
Y so?Coz it is d date where i br... off with her...
I really hate 2 hear those word,but perhaps she's rite,
we r nt suitable n we should take time 2 understand each other better first...
Tis is nt onli d age problem, but oso of where i cant be d man she wants :(
Yesterday i did lied 2 her a bit=.="
Not everything i said 2 her was d truth de..
Especially tat i'm ok after tis,how 2 u want me 2 be ok after such a thing happens?!!
I would need some time 2 recover from it,given it was my first love n it really struck my heart n it really HURTS *.*
Plus actually i didnt phone her is becoz i'm quite busy 4 serving my relatives from Singapore!!
But all of a sudden,i juz cant utter those words out n tat is my old problem,i really cant said wat i want when i phone her,c2pid +.+
Haiizz,now d main concern 4 me is tat how i'm going 2 face her after i go back 2 maktab...
Mayb she can pretend nothing happens n still talk with me like nothing happens...
But i really cant do so,I really cant face her,strange har?!
I will face her d whole year n i really very very SCARED about it,oh gosh!!!!
However,i will definitely nt gave up on her..
In fact,i would use d remain of tis holiday 2 improve myself...
I will nt be beaten like tat,i will stand up 2 be a better man..N becoz i'm still in love with her,so i
will try my best 2 chase her even there is onli a slim hope...
Well,tat's all for now n i really hope tat god will bless me 2 face all d tough challenges which lie
ahead....
